Intimacy of the Heart

Monastery of the Incarnation, Ávila, Spain

Yesterday I had an opportunity to paint for the first time in a while and it was such a powerful experience. Not the process of painting in itself but what was happening in my heart, mind and being felt powerful. As soon as I started playing with different colours, my mind went into the state that I would compare to trance or deep focus. I couldn’t consciously think about colours or what I wanted to paint, I could only feel my heart bursting and feeling deep, deep connection with Jesus. It was closeness and more than closeness; merging with the presence and feeling Oneness with Him, deep devotion, love and commitment. I desperately tried to express this on the paper but of course it didn’t work. After being distracted by the sense of disappointment in the final result, I realised that I just wanted to remember this Love and connection with Him and carry it with me.

The next morning as soon as I got up, I started journaling the insights and reminders, which is how Jesus often gives me messages and helps my mind align with Him. One of the insights emphasised in my mind was the importance of keeping my eyes on Him at all times; no matter what occurs in the outside or inside world of mine, being with Him and remembering that He is directing my life and He is in charge of it, is the solution. I don’t need to look outside, I don’t need to look at anyone. This is my intimate journey with Jesus and everything comes down to Him. As I let all this pour out of me, here it was, the same connection, the same devotion, the same commitment, the same sweet love that I experienced during painting the day before. Later that morning I ended up reading words from Jesus that were so beautifully aligned to the experience I had. I could only smile after reading it because I knew it was Jesus speaking to me once again taking His message even deeper into my mind. Now I have a feeling of a miracle in my heart. Here is what I read:

“Never take for granted My intimate nearness. Marvel at the wonder of My continual Presence with you. Even the most ardent human lover cannot be with you always. Nor can another person know the intimacies of your heart, mind and spirit. I know everything about you - even the number of hairs on your head. You don’t need to work at revealing yourself to Me.

Many people spend a lifetime or a small fortune searching for someone who understands them. Yet I am freely available to all who call upon My Name, who open their hearts to receive Me as Savior. This simple act of faith is the beginning of a lifelong love story. I, the Lover of your soul, understand you perfectly and love you eternally.” (From "Jesus Calling" by Sarah Young)

Thank You!

Love You! Nana